Surrender Isn’t Passive; It’s Powerful: The Birth of Blake Adelaide

What if the moment your plans fall apart is exactly when your power arrives? Today Lizzy shares the story of her daughter’s accidental home birth—a raw, intimate look at how timing, intuition, and partnership can carry you when control slips through your hands. This isn’t a highlight reel; it’s a ground-level view of second pregnancy realities, launching a business days before a due date, and moving from “I hope it works out” to “my body knows what to do.”

We track the day from the first signs of back labor and the Spinning Babies techniques that shifted her position, to a too-small bathtub that sped everything up, to the instant my body flipped into autopilot. You’ll hear how my husband anchored the room—midwives on speaker, towels on the floor, and steady hands as our daughter arrived in the hallway. The cord stayed intact, the midwives arrived soon after, and a fresh scalpel in a hunting knife handle sealed a story we’ll tell for the rest of our lives. It was messy, primal, and profoundly beautiful.

Beyond the birth, we dig into the deeper current: how surrender is an active choice, why reclaiming birth as feminine intelligence matters, and how stacking small proofs of intuition builds unshakable self-trust. I share the ache of feeling unseen while juggling caregiving and creation, and the relief of being witnessed—fully and honestly—through a story that changed me. If you’re craving a reminder that your body is wise, your timing can be holy, and your partnership can be sacred ground, you’ll find it here.

Listen, reflect, and then tell me: where are you being invited to let go and trust the unfolding? 

Episode Links:

• Season 1, Episode 29:  Sharing Birth Stories: Embracing the Journey of Motherhood and Holistic Healing, Jaxon's Natural Birth
• Lizzy's favorite Top Rated HealthyLine PEMF Far Infrared Therapy Mats
• Lizzy's pregnancy book recommendations:
  • Gentle Birth Gentle Mothering
  • The Mama Natural Week by Week guide

Chapters

• 0:00 Welcome And Theme: Favorite Things
• 0:54 Feeling Unseen And Why This Story Matters
• 4:56 Second Pregnancy Realities And Prep
• 7:25 Business Launch Meets Baby Timing
• 11:12 The Night Before: Signs And Intuition
• 15:02 Morning Back Labor And Spinning Babies
• 18:45 Bath, Acceleration, And Transition
• 23:10 The Hallway Birth And Bo Steps In
• 28:14 Midwives Arrive And Aftercare
• 31:45 Lessons In Faith, Feminine Power, And Partnership
• 36:40 Reflection, Prompts, And Letting Go
• 40:26 Celebrate Beautiful Births And Closing

Transcript

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Hi, I'm Lizzie.

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And I'm Nikki. Together, we welcome you to the Modern Sun Collective Podcast, a space where we explore holistic living, spiritual alignment, and personal growth.

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Each week, we'll share conversations, practices, and wisdom to help you live with more joy, purpose, and connection.

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For ancient wisdom and modern mindfulness, we are here to help you connect, expand, and come home to yourself. Let's elevate mind, body, and spirit together. And now on to today's episode.

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Hello, everyone.

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Welcome to a very special, very vulnerable and personal episode of the Modern Zen Collective Podcast, part of our December theme of our favorite things. Of course, my daughter is one of my favorite things. And I'm also very passionate about us as women having intention, following our intuition, our divine instruction in our body, our coding in our pregnancy and birth. And so all about empowering women to choose for themselves what is best for them. And so here I am to share the miracle of my daughter, Blake Adelaide, and her exciting birth, uh accidental home birth that happened a year ago. So here we are, a year later. We sold the house, the infamous house that this birth happened in. I am recording this in our camper, fifth-wheel camper, on the road with my family, currently in Alabama, which is beautiful, beautiful country. And I am finally sitting down to record this episode, which is a year, a year overdue, but for some reason, which I actually had to download yesterday when I was driving back out here to Alabama with my kids, you know, driving for long stretches of time is really good time for me to think, for me to listen to podcasts, to books, to things that spur my intuition, my divinity, my channel to speak to me and reveal truths that I am typically not in a long stretch of sitting and possibly silence like I am in the car on road trips. And I had a download yesterday that I am not feeling seen at this point in my life. There's so much that I do that is in different buckets, and I show up in a different capacity with different groups of people in different settings. And because my energy has to go in so many different places, and I am the primary caregiver for my kids these days, I have been feeling like I haven't been able to give the energy, the attention, the time outside of when I show up present for the little time I have or when I'm with the people that I feel like I'm always lacking. And that's a hard feeling to have. And so I think that must have something to do with why it's been so hard for me to sit down and record this episode and share this with you. Um but I'm ready now. It's time. She's a year old, and there was a book I read during my pregnancy. It's one of the two books I recommend every woman reads, and you only need these two books, and you will feel so educated, so informed, so ready for your pregnancy and your birth. Um, and one of them is called Gentle Birth, Gentle Mothering, and it was written by a doctor, a family physician who lives in New Zealand and has five kids, and she had five home births. And part of the book is her sharing her her children's birth stories. And she talks about sharing the birth story with her kids every year on their birthday as they grow up. And she shares that some of her children have been able to vocalize memories that they've had from the birth because they're so little and they're so close to it still, not a lot of time has passed, where they can share things about the birth with her as well, which I think is so interesting, such a beautiful thing. And so I'm trying to do the same thing. Uh, sit down with each of my kids on their birthdays and share with them the story of their birth. And of course, both of my kids have some wild birth stories. You know, sometimes life doesn't really unfold the way that we plan it, um, but it unfolds exactly the way it's supposed to. And so today I want to share the story of my daughter, Blake Adelaide, and really the moment, you know, another moment where true select true surrender was right in my face. Something that I really had to learn what it meant again. Again. And it was so interesting this time. She's my second pregnancy. Uh their birthday is actually one week apart. So Jackson turned two the week before Blake was born. So this second pregnancy was very different than the first. You know, we don't know how good we have it when we're pregnant the first time, but being able to take care of yourself and operate throughout the day, listening to how you feel and shifting how you move and what you do based on how you feel, um, that's a true luxury that you don't have the second time around when you have a toddler that you have to take care of and make sure the day works for them when you are pregnant with the second one. Plus, you get huge quicker. Like your body just is like, oh, we're doing this again. It just lets go. I swear I gained almost 30 pounds in the first 18 weeks this time, and it took me, you know, 25, 27 weeks in order to start gaining that kind of weight the first time around. So you're big longer. I was tired longer. Uh it was it was a lot harder the second time. And I honestly think really thought that I was gonna have another boy. So I was calling, you know, my baby uh Wyatt for the entire time until we found out that I was pregnant with a girl in, you know, week 23, something like that. So um then we had to, I had to switch the mindset from having two little boys to a boy and a girl. But I'm so blessed and so lucky to have her. I love her so much. Um, and she's so different than Jackson and so similar in some ways, which I love so much. So um with Blake, I was planning on having a birthing center birth, just like I did with Jackson. I really wanted to have a water birth. You know, I tried with Jackson and we just couldn't get him out in the tub. And so with Blake, you know, everyone tells you the next pregnancy after the first, your body is already loosened up, it's already ready for it, and it happens more quickly. So I was like, okay, great. We'll do a water birth. Same place. They actually were moving into a new birthing center. So I think we were going to be one of the last births in the old center, which is nice because we know where it is. Um, if you heard the episode about Jackson's birth story, you know we ran out of gas on the way there the last time. Uh, if you haven't, go back and listen to it. I'll link it. I'll link it in the bottom if you want to hear how they're different. Um but it was really interesting because Bo was out of town a lot this time during my pregnancy. He has a business owner with his uh partner, and they're in fiber optics. So they are uh technicians who install fiber, just like you have in your home right now. How you're listening to this, I'm sure your Wi-Fi. We've moved to fiber away from cable. And so he was on the road a lot. He goes, you know, he's in those years, those formative years of building the business, of building the customer base and having to really be the boots on the ground and the one that shows up in front of the customers all over the country. And so that's actually why we're in the camper now, is because I did not want to continue to raise my kids without their father in the home each and every day. And so here we are, you know, decided this last April, and now it's December, and um, we are on the road full-time, sold the house, and we're operating as a family unit again, which is what I wanted. And I have this beautiful life of location freedom, which I've always wanted for a long time as well. So um it's it's been a crazy year. And not having Bo around when I was pregnant the whole time was both nice and not nice. You know, it makes it easier in some ways where you can move through your days and your weeks however you and your child uh want to without the influence of anyone else's schedule or emotions or thoughts or feelings, um, which is nice in some ways. And then in other ways, it also makes it really hard being the only one all the time. I'm sure all you single moms and things out there know. And I felt like I was living a single mom life, but with a husband. It was it was kind of weird. Um but it also taught me a lot about how much women can just do what they need to do if they just have to do it and they don't have any help. You know, we never want to have to be the only ones. However, we have this incredible capacity to be the one if we need to be. And, you know, the goal is to not need to be the one for everything. That's why we have partners, husbands, you know, teammates, a tribe, family, friends, all these people, so that we can do things together. It's wonderful to be in community and tribe and and allow to us to share the responsibilities, the the beauties, the burdens, the all the things of this world that come along with it. Um but we can do it if we need to. So we're getting to the end of the year, and Blake is due in November, uh, actually November 16th. Jackson was born November 7th, and we're getting closer to the end. It's harder, I'm bigger. You know, having a natural birth, not a scheduled, you know, C-section or something, which is something that is pretty regular these days. Um, you never know when the baby's gonna come. The baby's gonna come when the baby wants to come. And I had been working on launching the Modern Zen Collective with Nikki here since June. We had started in June and we're meeting every week, doing a lot of work on it every single week, allowing it to come. And as we worked on it, we want noticed we wanted November to be the launch date. And I just set 1111 before we even thought about 1111 and what it was. And it was a Monday uh in November and about five days before Blake was due. And so at the time that I was about to birth Blake, I was also about to birth a new business, the Modern Zen Collective, with Nikki with this podcast. Um, two babies at once, you know, different kinds of babies, but both a lot of time and intention and love was put into, and we're very excited about both. And so as we get towards the end, you know, this is where you're learning to uh release control over how and when it happens and what it looks like. And just hoping and talking to her, you know, I talked to Blake and I said, All right, if you can just let me get through the launch of the modern zen, you can come whenever you want. I'll be ready for you. I just work with mommy here, you know. Just wait a little bit longer. Wait till after we get we get covered with this uh launch of the business. Because, you know, we launched quite a bit of episodes. I think we launched 10 episodes when we launched the business. And uh, you know, I'm responsible for everything that has to do with the podcast besides uh the recording of everything. And so it was exciting. I love the podcast so much. I had my own before um this one. So it's something that I really enjoy doing. Um, but I really needed some help with Blake here just to wait a little longer. And uh it was great. She waited. She waited. We launched on Monday the 11th. Um, Jackson's birthday was Thursday the 7th, right before that. And back uh when I was pregnant, when I had Blake, uh Sheila, my mother-in-law, was helping me watch Jackson on Thursdays, which was a big help because you know, I was launching this new business. I was coaching at the time, I was teaching yoga, I was helping my husband with his, and I needed a day in order to just be on the computer and get a lot of stuff done. And so it was a really big help to just have one day to work, one day to just move through the day how I needed to to get all the different things done. And here we come the next Thursday, the 14th, and it was another day that I didn't have Jackson um telling you the divine, Blake, all these things worked to just help this happen in the most divine timing. It was so wonderful. It was like the perfect balance of allowing the universe to take control and Blake to come when she was ready, and also trying to be prepared for everything else to be buttoned up to be in this moment of flow and surrender. And we're gonna reach some TMI now. So if you guys don't want to hear all the nitty-gritty of everything, you should turn off the podcast now because we're about to get into the TMI zone. Um, but you asked for it, you press play. So I'm sure y'all know if you have been pregnant or given birth that sex helps spur on labor towards the end. So sometimes if you're ready to have the baby, you can have sex, and the hormones that are released in your body and everything that comes along with the husband's uh fluid and semen help to spur on labor. Well, I was horny. However, I did not really want to have sex. I was huge, I was not feeling it. And so uh late on Wednesday night, I want to say at like 10:30, everyone's asleep. I decided to go into my yoga room and take a few moments to masturbate. It was wonderful, had a great time, came like once or twice, and I am 100% sure that that is what spurred on my labor. I never shared that with my husband because I'm like, I don't know if he really wants to know that I did that, you know, the night before and like didn't wake him up or whatever. But I feel like it is totally understandable that someone who is an extra 50 pounds does not want to have sex, you know, and they're horny and they just want to get it in and get it done themselves. So that's what I did. And I went to bed and I want to say around midnight, between midnight and 7:30 in the morning, I woke up about every 30 minutes to a contraction. It was like, mmm, feeling something intense. And then I would just go right back to sleep. So I think, you know, we have these pre-labor things or times when we have contractions and we're not in labor yet. So I think I was thinking that's what it was. Um, I wasn't too worried about it or anything. However, the next morning was Thursday, it's when uh Jackson was gonna go with my mother-in-law, Sheila. So typically I go and drop him off. It's about an hour in the car, takes about 25 minutes to get there, you know, chat for a little bit, 25 minutes back. Um, but luckily this time Sheila offered to pick him up. It was one of the first times that she's ever offered to do that, just randomly. And I was like, okay, let's do it. So between um 7:30, when I woke up around 7:30, and when she came and got him around 8:45 in the morning, I was having pretty intense back labor and I'd never experienced back labor before. It did not feel good. It did not feel good. And so as soon as she picked up Jackson, you know, I was having a hard time walking around, getting things done because it just was in quite a bit of pain. Um, I called the birthing center at nine and told them what was going on, and they recommended that I do some spinning babies techniques in order to get the baby moved properly uh back into the right position in my body so I wasn't experiencing back experiencing back labor anymore. And she was in this proper spot. And so uh Bo was already at work, you know, when I got up with Jackson and got him off. And so I laid on the couch and did some of the different spinning babies techniques myself, um, along with puppy pose on the ground, you know, it was uh it helped so much. It worked, it worked. It what it does is it allows your hips to loosen up, your body to loosen up, uh, release some of the pressure on the baby, release it so the baby can turn and get into the proper position because the baby wants to be seated properly. And so if you allow the body, the muscles to relax, allow the baby to drop down and then to come back in, uh, it actually works really well. It was phenomenal. So I called Bo around, you know, 9:30 and I said, you know, you should probably come home. I think we're I think we're in labor now. You should probably come home. He's like, okay. So he headed home, got home around 10, and uh, I'm laying on the couch. I hadn't really gotten off the couch since I started the spinning babies techniques. I was just laying there and um, you know, got my contraction timer out because they want to know how far you are apart at the birthing center. You know, they do the triage to see when's the right time for you to come in. And Bo came home, started cleaning the house. It was great, put the dogs outside. Um, I just laid there. I called the birthing center around 10, 10, 15, and they said, uh, I should probably get in the bathtub. I told them what was going on with my contractions. They were five, six minutes apart, about 45 seconds long. But part of triaging somebody who's in labor is they look to see if you can speak and talk through your contractions. And I I could do that. So they did not tell me to come in. I was thinking they were gonna tell me to come in. That's why I was calling them because I know the second birth goes faster. Like, okay, I'm gonna call them, let them tell me to come in and we'll go in. Um, however, they told me to uh go get in the bathtub if that sounded like it would felt nice, and they would call me back at noon. It's like noon? They're like, yeah, noon. I'm like, noon? Okay, you know, that's like over an hour and a half away from now, but okay. Um, so Bo runs me a tub, and I get in the tub, and I swear this moment in the tub has forever killed me from having a small bathtub ever again. I will never have a bathtub where I can't lay down fully, be comfortable, and be submerged because I When I tell you the crick in my neck or my knees or my belly, all of my like most of my body was sticking out of the water. It was not comfortable. And the water spurred my labor on. Like that really got it going. That ramped it up. So I spent about 20 minutes in the tub and I had Bo come and get me out when I just couldn't, I was not comfortable anymore. And my contractions were speeding up. And while I was getting out, you know, I have uh very dry skin. So when I get out of the water, I literally shrivel up like a prune if I don't put something on. So I was having my husband oil me up. And when I'd have the contraction, I was like, okay, don't touch me, don't touch me. Okay, we're good. And so my husband being so sweet, uh, we had our guest, my yoga room was set up as a guest bedroom for my mom with a pullout sofa bed. And my husband put my heated gemstone mat on there. I'm telling you, this mat is freaking amazing. I'll just have to link it in the show notes. Um, it is crushed up amethyst with jade and tourmaline stones. It has infrared technology. Um, and it has a frequency that you can set. And I set it to eight hertz, which is the hertz of the earth. And it's wonderful. So my husband heated it up for me on the bed, put sheets and blankets down, and I went straight naked from the tub, oiled, slicked up onto the bed. Um, and it felt so good. It was so warm and and it was wonderful. And I laid there for about 10 minutes and I started screaming. My husband, I'm like, something happened, something's happening, something's happening. I'm just feeling this incredible change, like transformation in my body. And I'm like, oh shit, something's happening. And right then, um my mucus plug popped. My water broke, which I had did not feel either the last time. And I find out later that's because my water did not break until I was in the tub with Jackson. That's why I did not feel the sensation or see the mucus plug the first time. My, so all of a sudden, my water breaks. My mucus plug has popped out. I was throwing up right before this. My husband had brought me a tub. And, you know, that's one of the signs of labor that you're going into transition into the actual birthing time is when you start throwing up. And so water broke, I'm screaming for him to come in the room. I'm like, you better call them now because she's coming. She's coming fast. And so he calls the birthing center and they're like, okay, we'll see you in 20 minutes. Well, at this point, I'm on all fours on my gemstone mat. And my body is just in autopilot. It's literally pushing. My body is just pushing. And that's what feels right to do, feels good to do. And that's what my body did. I could not stop pushing if I wanted to. I was trying honestly to move. My husband was like, all right, let's get in the car. Let's go. Mind you, I'm butt naked. I have no clothes on. It's the middle of the day. I thought we were gonna have a night birth. I was fully packed with like warm, cozy clothes for the night, and it was hot as bejesus out. You know, the middle, it was like 11 something. Everything happened so quickly. When I tell you it was like 20 minutes in the tub, 20 minutes on the bed, and like just a few minutes of pushing, and she's there 20 minutes till they got there. It was wild. It was like 20 minute spurts. Everything happened so quickly. So my body's pushing on all fours, and he's trying to like put pull a dress over my head, get me into the car, and I just can't move. I literally can't move. And he's like trying to get me to move. We need to go, we need to go. Well, honestly, thank God we did not go because I would have had her in the car. I finally got, took three steps to the door from the bed, and I dropped down on my hands and knees and I was like, she's coming right now. She's coming, she's coming. Thank God my husband is such a solid human being. He did train in paramedic firefighter school when he was like 19, 20 years old. I mean, but that was like 16 years ago, of course. So he has seen a birth, but he has never done this before. He is a hunter. He's used to blood and guts and the smells and all the juices and all the things. So honestly, not one moment did it cross into my mind, oh shit. I was like, she's coming, we're doing this. Let's go. I was not worried for one second, which when I think back on it, is like such a beautiful blessing that I have that kind of relationship and that kind of husband that I am so allowed to surrender into my femininity and into this moment because I know that he's gonna take care of me, he's gonna take care of our baby, he's got this, we're fine. It's like such a blessing. Wow. So grateful for that. And in that moment, he called them, put them on speakerphone, put some towels on the ground. I literally, you can see in the photo that he took of me right after it happened, I have marks on my knees from the child gate bars that were right there. It's literally kneeling in the doorway, half in the hallway, half in the yoga room, and the with the towels on the floor underneath me. And my husband, luckily, was right up in the action when I had Jackson, was able to see what they were doing to help Jackson get out. And he had to reach in there, give her some room because her shoulders were getting stuck. And when I tell you, I pushed probably like three, four hard, guttural, screaming, like yelling, primal pushes, which I did not do that with Jackson. I was so loud this time. Um, and I think I had the permission to be because I was in my own home. You know, it was like it was just my husband and I in the home. And he caught her. My husband and I delivered that baby on our own in the hallway. I flipped over, he put a pillow behind me, he put her on my chest and he put some blankets over us. And I didn't even notice. He took a picture of us and texted to everyone. I'm like, oh, what are you, babe? What are you doing? I guess he was so happy and so proud. And they were on speakerphone and they're like, All right, we're coming. And so the midwife showed up to our house 20 minutes after I had her. You know, he moved me and her into the bed. Um, we placenta and umbilical cord still intact. I we just walked to the bedroom and I laid down. They got there, and when they got there, they were like, we need hot towels, we need this, we need that, blah, blah, blah. And my husband just facilitated everything. It was so beautiful. I, you know, I wanted a home birth, but I didn't know if we could really do a home birth. And I wasn't, I wasn't sure if I had the faith to do it. And we fucking did it. Like with nothing else other than what we had in our home. We didn't buy a tub. We didn't have all this extra stuff. We just fucking did it, my husband and I. We had our daughter. And the midwives came to us and they said, okay, we're ready to cut this cord. Do you have a sharp knife? My husband went to the, went to the garage, got his hunting knife that he uses to clean his animals because it uses scalpel blades, got a brand new scalpel blade out of a package, showed it to them. They're like, all right, that's perfect. We need those, and cut that umbilical cord with his hunting knife. How badass is that? Like, just badass. I told him, I said, nobody's got nothing on us after this. We fucking delivered our own child in the hallway of our house, and you cut that bitch with your hunting knife. Like, how beautiful. And so an hour after we had our daughter, we had her 11:43 in the morning. We packed up in the car and went to the birthing center. And my husband was like, this is the most expensive bath I've ever paid for. And I tell you, they felt so bad for not having me come in when at 10 when I asked, you know, when I called. They were really upset with themselves for not triaging me properly. And everyone that I've told that is like, well, they should be. And I'm like, yeah, but you know, everything happened the way it was supposed to. And my husband, it's so funny. He's like, I swear you meant to do that. He's like, I swear you planned to do that. You meant to have that home birth. And I'm like, no, I promise. That's why I called them so many times. I wasn't trying to. But it was incredible. It was incredible. And this experience, you know, having her, just us in our home, really taught me about, you know, the power of trust, the power of faith, the power of the femininity, of surrender, of surrendering to the moment, surrendering to the incredible intelligence that you hold in your body, this divine intelligence that we were built with, to create life, to birth life, to fully trust, to have faith, to letting go of this illusion of control, that we have any sort of control over how, over when, over what things look like. And as I reflect on this with you too, this beautiful strength and partnership, this sacred partnership that I have with my husband, to be able to fully trust, to fully surrender, to not have one moment of fear, not one moment of pause in this incredible experience that we weren't prepared for, prepared, you know, for in quotations, because obviously we were on a spiritual, on a physical, on an innate divine intelligence, how we were built, how we were created level.

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You know, birth is really never what we expect it to be.

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But it's always an initiation and it's always an invitation to trust in life's divine choreography, in life's divine plan, in life's divine intelligence, in that innate intelligence within us to let go of all the fear that society has put on us around this beautiful thing called birth, called pregnancy.

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Something that is uh purely feminine, is purely woman, and has been manipulated and changed and taken from us and told to us that it's a medical procedure, that it's something we need to be taken care of for, that it is an ailment kind of thing. No.

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Taken over by men, no. Women, the feminine, we are the creators, the creatrixes of life. We create life from nothing, and we birth it into this world.

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And it takes so much hard work, so much intention, so much practice to have this faith, to surrender, to have this understanding and this partnership with the divine, with this history, with this feminine history, to feel okay with this. But it is our work, and it is something that we're meant to pass on pass on to our daughters, to the daughters of our generation.

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If we can do the healing now, we help so much. The ripple effect is huge. Especially having a daughter now.

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The responsibility that comes with having her is that I need to do the work even more so.

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I need to do the work to heal, to mend, to repair, to renew, to create new neural networks, new neural pathways, new ways of thinking, of being, of living, of operating, so that she can learn from me to just innately be that, to never have to unlearn programming put on her by other people, lies told to her about who she is and how she works.

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So that she doesn't even have to ever believe anything other than how beautiful, how special, how unique her fractal, her expression of divinity is in this lifetime.

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So she can just be herself all the time and work on growing and mastering her strengths and her gifts instead of trying to be all the things for all the people.

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I didn't really know that this is where this was going, but this is how I truly feel about it all, especially now having a daughter, and that this specific experience in birth, this accidental home birth, this powerful moment that I had with just myself and my husband and her welcoming her into this world.

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Honestly, I couldn't have asked for anything more. And I wouldn't ask for anything different.

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And so I hope sharing this story with you allows you to know the power that you have within yourself. Allows you to know the power that you have within the ability to listen to your divine intuition, your connection, and follow what's right for you. Because what's right for me isn't what's right for you. What's right for you isn't what's right for me. But we don't know what's right for us unless we take the time to listen, unless we take the time to be still, to be silent, to cultivate that connection with our inner knowing, so that we can follow what's best for us, and so that we can put on those blinders and say, fuck it to the outside world. I don't care what you have to say about how I should do something or what I should ought to do or not do. I don't care. I don't give a fuck. I know what's right for me because I feel so connected, I feel so sure of how to choose what is right for me from in my body, from in my knowing, from in my faith.

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And I just really want that for you.

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I do, because there is a huge shift that happens in the rest of your life when you have that confidence, when you have that clarity, when you have that strength of connection.

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It can't help but affect everything else in your life. It makes things so much easier.

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The decisions, the choices, the people, the situations, the experiences, everything.

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Maybe the story reminds you that life's most beautiful moments often happen when we let go. When we stop kind trying to control the timing, and instead we surrender to it.

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Where in your life are you being invited to surrender control and trust the timing of what's unfolding? What experiences have reminded you that sometimes miracles happen when plans fall apart? How can you cultivate more grace and present in moments of uncertainty?

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And reflect on a time when your intuition guided you. What happened when you listened? Because having that proof, thinking about these things, asking yourself when you listen to your intuition, what happened, when you have proof that it guides you and it's got your back, and that no matter what you will be taken care of, that breeds more faith.

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You're supported even in the unknown.

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The universe's timing is always aligned with your growth. And trust that's what meant for you will never miss you. Never. Everything is going to unfold how it's supposed to. So let's fucking let go. Let's not be so worried about it. Let's be prepared within ourselves. Let's be grounded and connected within ourselves so we're fucking ready for anything at any moment.

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Like having a baby girl in a hallway with nothing but your husband, some towels, and a hunting knife.

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And that's all I got for you. That's all I got for you.

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And I hope some of this resonated with you. I hope that my story helps you, right? That's why we share. To feel connected with each other through shared experiences, through things that we both think, feel, want, have. And I think we need to get more used to talking about the beauty of birth, the times when things go well. Because a lot of the times what we see is when things don't go well. That's the stories we hear. And we need to work on being more willing to say, you know what? My birth was fucking beautiful. It was magical, and it was even better than what I would have hoped for. We start celebrating each other for those too. Because that's Lot of what's going on out there, and we need to tune ourselves, tune our reticular activating systems, our RAS, to see the good, to see the positive, to see when things go right. So thank you so much for joining me today. Thank you for caring. Thank you for pressing play. I love you all. And I'll see y'all next time.

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